I thought this as well! His music makes a lot more sense now that he is dead, though I can't explain what the feeling stands for, but there is this strange feeling I often get whenever I listen to his music, sometimes a feeling of sadness envelopes me as if I once knew him. As for why did Kurt Cobain kill himself? I may not be able to say why, but I feel Kurt never wanted to live very long, He had a lot of drug problems, coupled with the deep hatred he had for himself, he believed he was never good enough, I believe he had a lot about him that Nirvana fans will remember for a very long time. Though I never knew when Nirvana was still in vogue in the music scene, but I remain one of their greatest fans. How I wish they were still here now and alive with us.